If any of you follow me on here or on twitter, you will probably know that I broke up with my boyfriend of two years at the start of the summer. It’s been two months now and I’m happy to say I’m no longer crying, or upset, but now I’m on to the next stage… moving on. And I’m struggling.
It’s not that I’m emotionally unable to move on. To be honest, I just don’t know how. I’ve never been the best when it comes to flirting. I’m awkward, especially around guys I don’t know. And even if I wasn’t awkward, I wouldn’t know where to begin with meeting guys. I hardly go out anymore, I work with teenagers and fully grown adults (you know what I mean, like 40+ people), and I spend all my spare time blogging. Also, when I’m out I tend to get hit on by a bunch of 20 year olds due to my babyface.
I know that everyone is into online dating these days, but honestly, it scares me. I’ve downloaded both tinder and bumble and hate them both. Sure, I can spend hours swiping through everyone (that bit is fun), but the conversation… now that’s scary. And why do guys never send the first message? No joke, I’ve had to initiate every single conversation I’ve had.
And while we’re on the topic of the conversations… wtf am I supposed to say? How do I start? Should I start with some cheesy chat up line? A funny joke? Or just a generic: hey, what’s up? And when we get into the conversations I’m pretty sure I come across as boring. Don’t get me wrong- I have a sense of humour. In fact, some people might even call me funny (not too many people mind). But my humour is very much sarcasm based. And as anybody who is fluent in sarcasm will tell you- it DOES NOT translate well over a message.
So there you have it. My random ramblings on how the hell I’m supposed to move on. If you have any tips, or any hot 25 year old single male relatives, then please; send them my way.*POST MAY CONTAIN AFFILIATE LINKS